B4

Its here for everone, at no cost to you.
No one, now a days.
A common surprise; common eyes.
I want to look back on all this.
Working conditions ?
Were am I going?
Aware of situations, aware of the situation.
Flirting marriage, the idea of being, a good protion of my day . 
Certain outlook; lonliness, pennyless.
Tired staycation social life, tired car.
What do I have ?
Appreciate classic dream zone.
Confusion threshold , breathing deeply is deeply breathing.
A company is closed, door. I dont know.
Breathing.
Breathing.
Same "being alone" lonliness deal

update

hey guys, hows it going?

i wanted to let some of my friends know what i've been up to. hi, 'been trying to look for work for almost six months now. i moved to oak park from my place on 16th street. its really just a struggle to find work and to pay rent these days. there is a slim chance of going to school in the spring to get my last year and half completed on my bachelor's degree. rent is my biggest priority and if i could find even a part-time job then i would be able to attend in spring, but this window of opportunity is starting to close.

other then these "things" i'm doing pretty good. i'm feeling good, also i'm alot thinner then i was this time last year ( got up to 280 lbs).

i want to let alot of friends know that i'm ok and that i apologize for not getting back to them through my emails and such. sorry guys, i'll get back to messaging when the times are a bit better. i just can't see myself writing emails when i can't afford essential things. yeah i had a list of people to email when time alotted me that luxury however i sold the computer with the list on its hard drive.

so anyway, i hope everybody is well and that your summers' have been great for family and friends. ok take it easy guys, for now back to the job-hunt.

update

working really hard and working too hard with my commute. my check is going to buy a bike, man my feet hurt... i've said i'm too old for this to myself "too" many times this week. going to try and hang in to find another job. it doesn't matter what i'm doing for work but i have to be sitting down. a sit down job is the best thing for me. maybe this thing with work will pass and i'll go into work on friday with no trouble. i'm afraid my lack of patience for anything resembling trouble is going to be to my disadvantage.

anyway, life a little messy with the move and the new neighborhood. "i got chased by a prostitute a couple nights ago, she kept saying she wanted me to give her a tissue wtf..." WTF

anyway anyway, well i'm alive working hard still haven't changed my address yet, i'll put that on the list too

yugg dug and full of mugg

identify to identify the identitity, a form that has lost its ...
if people know who i am, then these decisions have decided ..
sitting in place, sitting in a chair, sitting on a place,
sitting in line, standing in sitting down-line ...

dragging on down to the point of no return, the dragging point of no return...
flowering vegitation gives me hope...
i could buy something to get off my mind, the purchase power...
falling extremely fast, out of fucking control falling ...

focus on it, you need to focus..
what are you doing?
what the hell are you doing ?

i have decided
i will fashion a list, this list will provide me timely information ..

post 69

so i'm going to be moving this month, yeh. i hope school lets me stay another year, answers at end of the month. Finacial aid says that i am not good enough. their right, i just hope they make mistakes, good mistakes. this month is pretty crazy but just rolling with it. trying to keep my nose to the grindstone so as to not over-think the situation too much, na wha i saaayn.. moving to natomas area.. but cool. 16th street can sukk it, SUKK IT .. would love to see something good happen around me , idk kinda low ... yea all the usual things i rely upon to sustain interest have been well, used.. kinda bored and working the usual system of "workage" work stuffs... idk idk idk.. i'm starting to think of things to be grateful for but , who cares.. i do, i care about the indifference of no one. its probably a slow news day and i'm wishing something bad happenned so i could talk about it. wow, that is the truth. well some goals could quell this flood of pessimisism, maybe a point. this is when i turn to science the cure-all



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Swedish Nationalists in Struggling City See Rival Parties Steal Their Thunder

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/08/04/world/europe/04sweden.html?_r=1&ref=world&pagewanted=all

"boo" day

going to college today to try and smooth out some of the wrinkles. i'm hopeful, well fifty percent. Financial aid could only do so much for below average student. if there are excuses then thats fine. even reasons, if happens that i don't then its on to the next. still lookin for a room, have a couple but not sure things ... wanted, good vibes can you send them my way. yay! Vibes! need to start this day, monday