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so the semester is half over and i'm tired. it been a while since i've written. the roommates are good, things are smooth for the most part. there have a been some bumps but mostly getting used to this new lifestyle is ......

the internet is my new thing now, i have it in my room and i'm loving it... now i could apply for jobs without having to go to school.

painting and drawing is tiring at this rate, i hope i could get used to it. the jury is still out.

catching a little cold but i can't afford to get sick.....

happy halloween

journal

procrastinating ..... i have a day of organizing and a revolation that i need a driver's licence to move... that one hit me this morning as i woke up. *sigh* . it might be an issue if there is a time crunch with school and moving. the worse thing is i might have to do another trip to move and whatever else i didn't forsee... man, what a bone head move.

anyway, got to organize my days so things like above mention doesn't happen without prior knowledge.. mmmm coffee. had to spend my afternoon at the community college yesterday, no highlights.. i'm thinking im gonna have to get that studio. sharing a house has pros and cons, but i'm gonna follow my gut ... unless, something comes up. i haven't signed papers yet so if you're out there, i'm looking for awesome housing!

today is one of those inbetween days, so far. glad to be away from this mall soon. geez mall culture.. wondering if i'm going to spend my hours effectively in the near future. this organization day should quell some on my concern.

getting funny comments on the LILO pic. really i don't mean anything by it, just fun. thinking of buying a refurbished computer from dell or... got to run those adobe art programs, stepping up to the digital world. it should be interesting, maybe i could print out an art show like a friend of mine did years ago.... that was a cool show you did justin, i'm glad i got to go halves withya...

ok anyway, i'm guessing that im gonna be colliegate for my thirties so ... i really haven't prepared enough for this . these things will interest me when i'm settled in sacramento. wide awake in a sleepy town, can't wait. a cold beer at the FLAME !

yea, still procrastinating. damn that greyhound bus accident the other day was a scary story. that is too close , its the route i take ... anyway, no need to anger the gods on this one.

ooh a nice technical non fiction book, a tasty beer, a game of go and room full of instuments and recording equipment! well maybe soon, er got to start my day... erg

another coffee, i have to tone down my personality. i'm a little intense, no excuses just thinking how much i have to count to in my head to relax a bit.

listenning to this online radio station and it reminds me that i never got to go to that club downtown that played shoegaze stuff... that is life

ah coffee is working, this is a good day! declarative sentences, ahhhh. now i'm just wasting time. got to , uh, um, yeah

uh bloody chores, damnit. i might have to go on disposable kitchen stuffs vacay! oh or maybe a dishwasher is in my future, who knows.

my mind is spent on the possible futures, i only have to go to the bank for now so ill mentally count to 10 and organize later. today....

alright i'm out

eh

beating heart moves from here ,to here, to here, to there. speaking to me with a warm hold to join together .... johnny buys something, no one buys anything..... jewel hearts in a window, emo icon clicked by....... found my lighter,,,,,,, so what,,,,,,,, feeling like i just won a carnaval,,,,, why this is a graduation,,,,




august 11th, transfer orientation day @ CSUS........

cabin fever bob

living on a boulevard when a street suits,

your nobody till somebody loves you,




boredom is oppressing my community. trees will line my street in a future, in a tiny moment. it'll be nice to let go of some,,,,,,, space making my room, tiny room boy. there is too much energy and i need to run a marathon or something, get tired, bear! celebrate, P90X sweat factory! there is going to be so much getting done, i just hope that i'm ready inside, bob. watching events of sporting events are passive, leaving spectators enjoying enjoyment, to watch.

it would be nice to socialize at the clubs again, miss that. having some rain to feel can be nice too, miss that. CSUS Hornets, the hornets are alright. i'd love to rent a studio and get loud and junk, damn cabin fever. i should buy a double bass pedal (metal fingertapping!!!!)

new computer times, creative suite is going to make life very easy. THANK YOU(whisper). my oh my, inspiration overload. get ready, get ready, ready up. make plans. shmoke dat, a product is amazing to ponder, so now i have to GOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go . goal. ...........

antsy

august can't come fast enough. i'm gonna have to keep myself busy or i'm gonna pull my hair out. i guess i could find some stupid job for a month , its just so annoying. sacramento, sacramento tree lined streets of letters and numbers. i want to curse, what for? im pretty stoked that i found some roommates , hope everything goes well . i can't wait , what am i going to do with myself. curse word! it it. tv is boring a hole in my head, dishwashing is better than tv. bobby needs a new pair of shoes. man , i am climbing up the walls...........

witch feelings

a want, then, are you? are you getting what guardian and babysitters . is this what you want to do? something is being done. there is enough to work faster. full tank is lifting more weight. you are not working hard enough. you have thoughts and feelings? you do then, you're not working hard enough. work brought to you by someone better then you. you are what you do, do so, do more. and, and, and, like, yeah. a better person made better money falling gracious. keep moving, you cant feel earthquakes. give all your money away, you don't want it. all the world kept your money to pay others to do work witch produce work in turn waters gardens. trade portions, count particles and smoke. work jesus, work jesus for your sins. if sin is anything. money will. give jesus away.

what a deal in luxury, you're so great. words are inventions to describe your greatness in meaning, you mean . people live forever , they do. look prove it. thats what you want and your answers will work for jesus. crater works for me, god works for me, creator works for free. how many gods are there?

school travels

sacramento has changed if the rumors are true. so good. so glad. 'cant wait till august, damn what am i going to do with myself. looking for a job in vein but at least i did all i can do. spending money would be cool before the semester starts ! already getting stoked just writing about it, i know its not that important but.......the rest. thank you friends all over the place for keeping me from insane, the noun. thanx guys, cheers !

well now i have to get rid of those pictures on that old fashion camera i've been holding on to for several years now. pictures of bunnies , lighthouses, and the mary of queen ! should start packing, organizing, drinking less. so much to do , so much to do .

too much going on to go on typeing